I know why I don't come back here, it's because I have too much to say and I don't know where to start, so I become overwhelmed in my own thoughts and I think no I just can't do it.
Perhaps I need to close up this blog. I don't know.
Maybe I should give you some bullet points.
- Single parenting is hard. I am tired. Boo is just gorgeous but he is a very stubborn and determined. He is cheeky but beautiful and so loving it melts my heart. But some days are really tough.
- My Dad has been diagnosed with mild Alzheimer. He has become horrible, I know it's not him it's the disease but it is heartbreaking. He is breaking our family unit apart. He has become paranoid and delusional, changing locks to the house twice even when none of us have a key. We take him food he throws it out because he thinks we are poisoning him. I could talk about this for ages but it's upsetting and I don't have the energy today.
- I miss Max.
- I miss my Mum.
- I am still trying to build up my photography business, I am passionate about it, most days but some days I just lose the passion. I need to make money.
- I am trying to look for part time work, without success.
- I am seeing a psychologist. She is helping me work through all of the above. I know I will get there... Slowly.