Time Passing

I have seriously been thinking about giving blogging away. But after reading Edens post I realised I need my blog. She writes "When I publish a post, a whole weight has been lifted and I feel lighter as I walk through the world again." I remember that feeling and I want to feel it again. So I am not going anywhere. Perhaps I just needed a break from it for a while. I hope I haven't lost all my readers.

Did you here? Eden won Best Australian Blog 2012, she is amazing and deserves such an honor. Please go over and congratulate her.

So I am still feeling unbalanced. I know I need to make big changes, big decisions but I am not getting anywhere with them really. I have plenty of ideas, I just don't know which fork in the road to take. It's probably the time I need to write it all out and get it out there so I can find some clarity in my thoughts.
 I will do that.

Tomorrow marks 2 years since Max passed away. Two years. I find that hard to believe. I still have that vision of him dying in my head. It has got easier, like most people told me it would. But I still miss him so much. I miss his company, I miss his cuddles, I miss his scent...I just miss him. A few people have asked me what am I going to do tomorrow. I don't know, what do you do to mark two years of your husbands passing? I will go visit him at the cemetery with Boo, I might take him some flowers. I will buy a coffee and sit and hang out with him for a while and have a chat and no doubt a cry. That is what I will do. Then I will take Boo to his swimming lesson, then have a playdate with friends, then drop Boo off at my sisters to stay the night so I can go to the Prince concert with my nephew. I think that is a good balance of grieving and distraction. I hope it is anyway.

Road Tripping

I started writing a blog post last week and it is still sitting in drafts incomplete. So just to let you know I am still here I am going to share some photos of our recent road trip to Western Plains Zoo, Dubbo. I can highly recommend a visit there. Boo loved it!

Unbalanced.

I am here and still breathing. I am sorry, I just don't know where the time is going?
I am feeling very unbalanced at the moment. Very confused about where I am at. I just feel like taking off. Getting in a the car and traveling around Australia, just me and my Boo. Then I think "you idiot you don't even know how to change a tyre or do first aid" (They are now on my list of things to learn ) I get this feeling from time to time. This feeling of restlessness. Maybe I just need a holiday. I don't know. I am confused about a lot of things. I can't even write about it because I don't understand it. Yes very lost.

So yeah I am here.
This little guy keeps me busy and I love that he does.

The Loop

I don't like being out of the loop in the blogging community. I am, I am currently way out of the loop. Stuff is happening I read glimpses of it and I don't know what people are talking about. Not only have I not being able to blog, I haven't been reading blogs either. I have over 100 posts to read in my Reader. I want to read them all, I want to comment on them all. I am going to try over the next couple of days. I just want to say sorry if I haven't come by in a while. If something big has happened to you please come and tell me. Fill me in, I need to be back in the loop.

I keep throwing around the idea of going to Blogher this year but I have been such a bad Blogger I don't feel like I should. Well that is one reason along with a few more. The real reason I do want to go is to meet my blogging friends. I would love to meet them all, and I will one day. I think they should bring Blogher to Sydney one year! Who is in ?

So yeah I will catch up, I may or may not comment till I catch up but at least I will be back in the loop.
Drop in and say hi.

I will leave you with some photos of Boo playing in puddles with his friends.

The Extra Day

We get an extra day so I blog. We are ok. Thanks for those who were concerned.

I just haven't had the head to blog. I don't know which direction my blog is going any more.
I just blog about life in general these days. Which I think I am ok with. When ever I need to get things out I will. I really enjoy writing when I do, it's just the thought of writing and finding the motivation I am struggling with at the moment. Apologies for going quiet, bad me.

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Boo had a rough time after his surgery. Getting fluids into him was really challenging, I did take him back the hospital I was concerned he was becoming dehydrated but he was borderline and they sent him back home. I kept syringing hydro-lite into his mouth every 10 mins, not without a war but it worked. He would wake every hour screaming in pain and there was nothing I could do for him. But he came through and is back to his normal self. His speech has improved 200% since, I noticed the improvement pretty much straight away. We now have little conversations. It really is amazing the difference it has made. His balance is great too he is now climbing everything without fear.

Last week went for a mini break to the Coast with some friends. It was nice to get a few consecutive days at the beach and Boo had a ball. This Summer has not been a Summer, it has been very wet. It is raining again as I type, surprise, surprise. Today being the last day of Summer, hopefully Autumn will be better for outdoor activities.

Boo went back to Daycare this week, his Carer went to overseas for 7 weeks. I am finally getting some time back for me and focus on my photography business again. It has been hard work having him 24/7 with no breaks. I might even get more time to blog now.

My Dad is currently in hospital with pneumonia. He has been in since Friday, he is doing ok. I have a whole blog post to write about him but that will be for another day.

That is the update.
I will share some photos and hope to be back here a lot sooner next time.

Boo loves cooking.

A Quick Post Today.

- A quick post whilst Boo is having a rest.

- Boo had his surgery Monday. Tonsils and adenoids out and grommets put in his ears. He is not doing the best stayed in hospital two days instead of one due to vomiting and rejecting fluids and food. We came home yesterday. I am watching his nappies today if they are too dry he will be back in hospital to be put on IV fluids.

- I do love the snuggles but I hate seeing my boy in pain and discomfort.

- I am really tired, staying at the hospital with Boo was tiring. Now at home and constantly at him to drink and eat, is tiring especially when it is continuously rejected.

- Boo is up, that's it for now. Time for more snuggles and pain medication.

Sleeping with his Teddy. He looked so tiny in that big hospital bed.

A Post In Photos

 Just a warning there are a lot of photos in the post.

A week into the new year already. Slow down please is all I can say. I hope you have all had a great start to the new year.

We like to keep busy around here especially in Summer we are always out and about or in the backyard. Boo loves being outdoors, we have lots of playdates with little friends. He loves company. He gets upset if I take him to the park and there are no other kids there. I am always on the look out for free events around Sydney. Getting into the city is easy for us, we just hop on the ferry up the river and saves me the hassle of looking for parking. So we often go out on adventures, even if we just walk the streets of the city. Boo is a people watcher and he is happy to just to look and stop and have a run from time to time. Which is great for me because I get to take photos. We also go to art exhibitions. We do arts and crafts which he loves, the messier the better for him.

Here are some photos of what we get up to and the fun we have.

Sand Castle fun. The best part is smashing them down.

Wading in the rock pool.

The Wiggles Exhibition

Splashing in puddles.

Water play with buckets.

Doing a big painting .

but decided that painting his body was more fun!

Fun at the water park.

Visiting Cock-a-too Island.

Graffiti Exhibition at Cock-a-too Island.

I made a waterslide in the backyard with his friends.

He loves paying with water. The hose being his favourite, so filling up the pool is part of the fun.

Boo stayed up and watched the 9pm NYE fireworks from our back deck, these are the midnight ones.

Sydney Harbour Bridge fireworks NYE

He was happy just to watch the clowns move the heads from left to right.

At the Graffiti exhibition

At the Graffiti exhibition

Feeding the bunny.

He participated in an art installation Tangled, he loved it!

He participated in an art installation Tangled, he loved it!

You can never have enough lego play.